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@fatelab 求签 五月运势 量子

哎现在真怕走路上被捅一刀

我好累我做不下去了

为什么我讨厌制定计划，尤其带有其他人的计划，因为只要制定了计划我就会尽全力去推进执行，但别人又总会更改计划，导致期待落空，所以我及其抗拒长远计划，我只相信当下和明天。

谈恋爱就会对另一方产生期待和幻想，她去日本玩了三周，周四她回来的那天是我的生日，因为她的要求一直没见面，我提了几次周六见面，得到的回答是maybe但因为幻想总觉得是必然，然后幻想破灭，从下午两点一直难受到现在。
我也不知道该怎么面对这种情绪，我用了二十四年的来训练自己不要再去别人产生期待，但对恋爱也该如此吗，如果不的话我又该怎么面对期待破灭呢，我不懂

羞耻心真的是推动我进步的最大动力

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...原来我一直洗澡的时候洗内裤并把内裤挂在潮湿的洗浴间风干然后患上chronic uti才是我这十年如此惨淡的原因...吗........

昨天是我头儿工作的最后一天，after almost 45 years of working for this company and being the clinic manager of this big private hospital, she finally retired. When I was in last year of uni, I was the only student who had placement at this hospital twice, 因为一些缘分和巧合，那时候对她很害怕，但后来她也是我决定来这里工作的一个原因. She's super senior and nice, knowledgeable, when she's there you feel like everything is under control。刚开始上班的时候还是怕她，但去年年底听到她要退休后，在某个时间我们的关系突然突飞猛进，then you realised how nice and lovely she is.
I was working with her on Wednesday, but I was working at a different clinic on Thursday which is her last day, so decided to come around during lunch. 在日本玩时等朋友，无聊买了几袋抹茶，特地买了一包最贵的当时想着送人，never thought would be her, but it turned out to be a great gift for her. When I step into the department, this is how you realised how welcome and good a person can be, everyone came from different clinics to say goodbye to her, the drs came, the hospital staff came. I want to be someone like that, not as much, but someone who other people trust and proud of.
She turned on an auto reply after finishing work today, saying thank you for your email, I have retired. I love that auto reply so decided to send her a random ^-^ email to save a copy of it, and unexpected she replied to me. "Thanks for coming past this afternoon and congratulations on your progress in CT and xray. Proud of you."
好想哭

Want to become a person that can be proud of by others

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若无法自成体系，就妄论天才。

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